Tiny Guys

‘Everything you can imagine is real’

Pablo Picasso

|Tiny Guys|

Tiny dreams trapped in a wooden box with a ballerina on it
Knock on the lids
Praying to be led out
As they struggle a little bit.

There exists a universe in all of them
But multiverses only peak at us
From a science fiction novel.

We all share the same genes
From the beginning of time
And there’s something about the way
These tiny rascals move
That they somehow intersect at a point.

Its like they get warm when they find a lonely soul
Moving around galaxies
Making white noise
So you’ll almost miss them
But there’s always a familiar garden nearby
With roses and tulips
Tea and English biscuits for the old guy.

There’s a door
That changes color with the place
Or mood
It doesn’t have a key
But opens when someone needs to go.

These tiny guys use the door
To reach their destination
Between crippled fears and tear-stained truths
They sometimes tarradiddle with the path
Only to get to the other side.

There’s something weird about
how each of us
And each of these dreams
Are connected
As if
They all yearn for the same thing.

Prajakta Dengale

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Insanity

|Insanity|

Insanity comes at an age they say,
The young lady from the corner who curses at every passerby might disagree.
But then again her mother and father were both crazy, must run in the family.
Insanity seems like that crazy aunt everybody hates at family reunions.
She’ll poke her nose where it isn’t suppose to be and throw the food away,
Screaming at people ‘You’re the one with delusions!’

Maybe insanity is just a child of god who wandered a little further on the seashore,
The water welcomed her in and made love to her, they all thought, what a whore.
Insanity doesn’t care much about pride and honor,
But when everyone turned against her,
She had to seek revenge and take this task upon her.

She started creeping into the bedrooms of god’s favorite creation,
Man.
When he’ll be sleeping soundly, shoulders tired from lifting his worries like dumbbells,
She’ll crawl into his mind ready to cast her spells.

Insanity sings the songs no-one’s ever heard of,
She takes away boys because she isn’t that fond of love.
She loves walls and you, when you’re behind them,
She marks her love by giving us her favorite gems.

She gave them hope when everything broke in front of their red eyes,
She fed them with the truth she build, or were they just lies?
Hope is a 4 letter word with a 4 word meaning,
Hold On, Pain Ends
Or is it
Hold On Pain Ends?

The one with strong arms held to the pain till their very last breath,
Insanity doesn’t leave you alone, she cradles you in her arms,
As you welcome in death.

-Prajakta Dengale

5 tips to have a Healthy Heart

That lump of flesh,
Beating in your cage of bones,
Which is sometimes fragile,
And the other times deafening with its rapid beating,
Is your heart.
So here are 5 tips to keep it healthy, besides eating right and exercising, of course:

One: Fill it

Fill it with everything,
Fill it with every beautiful thing you can lay your eyes on,
Fill it with the love you’ve always yearn for,
Fill it with your dreams,
As stupid as they may seem,
And the inspiration to make them true.
Fill it with sorrow,
For sometimes it needs to break a little to let the pain out,
Fill it with care,
You don’t want something,
That you cannot bare.

Two: Surrender it

Surrender it to anyone that makes you skip a beat,
Surrender it to the things that you find peace in,
Surrender it to the world,
Surrender it to the feelings,
Carry it on your sleeve,                                                                                                                    And give pieces of it away like candy on Halloween.
Surrender it to the idea,
That every time you give a tiny piece of your heart away,
It’s always going to be loved,
For it will be a part of them,
Even if they don’t know it themselves.

Three: Cherish it

Cherish the accelerating heartbeats from when you’re nervous,
Cherish the warmth spread in your veins on a cold night,
Cherish the pain it has once suffered,
And cherish the love it will deserve,
Cherish every single beat,
Every heartbreak,
And every heart failure,
For even after each of those,
It never stopped beating.

Four: Set it free

Set it free from the rules you made yourself,
Set it free into the rain,
And let it dance every once in a while,
Set it free to make those stupid decisions,
And don’t regret them.
Set it free into the world full of hatred,
For maybe that tiny heart of yours,
Could add to the love.

Five: Care for it

Care for it when it hides in your ribcage,
Afraid to be out again.
Care for it when it’s shattered on the ground at 3 in the morning,
Care for it when it aches for love it never got,
Care for every single time it surrenders,
Surrenders to the wishes of the world,
Care for it as if you’d care for the most precious thing on earth,
For without it,
There’s no you.

– Prajakta Dengale

To the writer in you

To the writer in you,

Its nice to finally get in touch with you. Maybe you aren’t aware of your own presence inside of the person you were born in. Or maybe you just need brushing up that memory of yours. Probably on a rainy evening when you couldn’t go out to play and thats when you came across it. Covered in dark red with many mysterious words written inside of it, and the only ones that made sense to you were the words you knew how to speak. Maybe thats when you blossomed.

Or maybe it was around the time your aunt went to live half across the world from you, and sent you postcards of all the amazing places she visited. You had to reply to her, not because your mother forced you to, but because you wanted to let her know how much you loved the postcards and wanted her to send you more. Just writing those letters made you feel happy.

Oh you were so young back then. Scribbling in that blue journal of yours, writing about everything and nothing at the same time. Some days you will just write the new quote you had read the night before, over and over again. With the pen pressed over the paper a little too hard to get an impression on the other side. Your tiny hands tracing the words as if they were a map to treasure island.

Remember your first poem? About a certain Mrs. Wilkerson and her beautiful garden? Seems very silly now, doesn’t it?

Why did you stop? Why did you let the poor child forget all about its superpowers? Being able to create a world of your own just by using numerous combinations of letters, without any concern of the reality, that was your superpower, right?

And now you regret it. So what if not everybody loved your work of art? Or had a few opinions about it that were arrows straight to your fragile heart? Couldn’t you write them as a villain in a story and kill them off the hands of a 6 year old? Instead of stopping couldn’t you just let it pass and not ruin the one thing that you love?

Maybe we will see you soon again, probably on a rainy afternoon when you couldn’t make up your mind whether to watch Netflix or take a nap, and you will come across the book again. Covered in dark red with many words written inside it. And this time you’ll understand most of those words and finally decide to wake up from your hibernation and write a few of your own. Use that superpower of yours again.

I hope you do…

Love,

The one who lost his superpower.

– Prajakta

Naila

I decided to travel for a while after my Mother died. On a rainy day when I was lost in the streets, I met Naila. I was soaking wet and in dire need of some hot tea and directions to my destination. She took me in and gave me both.

Even in her early forties, Naila looked a bit older. Her face was wrinkled with the seasons she had experienced over the years but her eyes still sparkled like 4 years old. I stayed with her for two months. Listening to her stories, sipping tea and eating her special home-made chicken.

That woman had stories to tell. Nothing exotic or sad even, just stories. Some days she’ll get lost telling how her grandfather brought home the wall clock that proudly hangs in her living room and the other days she’ll hum the lullaby her mother sang to her every night for 15 years and recite the bedtime stories she knew by heart.

She had lovers, many of them. Some she remembered with a tiny smile and some she just shrugged off with the shake of her head. She liked to talk. Talk about her days, her childhood, her neighbors and even the guy around the corner that owned a bakery. She had stories and loved to tell them.

“You should write these stories,” I suggested on a warm Sunday evening, as we both sat by the porch, me writing in my journal and Naila just staring at the setting sun, deep in thoughts.

“I’m not good with words, unlike you.” She replied with a soft smile.

“You can try, you have so many stories to tell.” I insisted. I always admired how she could tell a tiny incident in a way that would put some great stories to shame.

“Why don’t you write one?” she asked signaling to my journal. “You are always scribbling on those pages, I could only hope you are writing one.”

I looked at the journal in my hand. Words were written, not in a specific order but just right enough for me to understand. I said nothing.

That night at dinner, I informed her I’d be leaving the next morning and thanked her for her hospitality and offered her some money for letting me stay. She refused them and tucked the money into my pocket saying I’d need it more.

The next morning as I was tying my shoelaces and avoiding eye contact to hide the tears from her, she came and hugged me tightly. Before leaving she gave me a notebook with a short story written in childlike handwriting, probably her; it was about the time she met her husband, who later died of sickness.

“I tried my hand at writing, but as you can see, I’m not good with words. But you are. And I wish you’d write stories. I know you got many. And if you have got a story, it’s always worth telling.” I nodded with a shy smile and said my goodbyes.

We stayed in touch until the day she died. I wrote letters to her and got replies almost immediately, until one day when the letter wasn’t written by her. She had passed away. I went to her funeral, for our final goodbye.

On her tombstone were the words engraved,

And when the earth shall claim your limbs, then shall you truly dance.

I took a piece of paper and left a small note on her grave next to the tulips. She lived every day as if she was here to stay forever. Her stories kept her alive, even after she was gone. It rained that day. Not because the sky was sad for her death, but it showered in the hope of making a path for someone who’s lost. Just like what she did for me. I smiled at the words on the note,

She who lived on the clouds, dancing feet never touching the ground and a heart that told stories.

– Prajakta

 

Dear Friend

Dear Friend,

It’s been a long time since we last talked. Hell, its been a long time since we shared glances. Ever since you left for dreamland, its been getting lonely. Don’t get me wrong, I like the space, but I am not used to being alone.

My friends, who were already a handful, have now reduced by one. I now read in silence, as nobody’s as stubborn as you and doesn’t want to read a book on their own. Although I do read to Nunzio sometimes. You remember Nunzio? He’s getting bigger, I can hardly lift him anymore. He misses you.

Tell me how things are for you? Did you find a new cafe to hangout at? How are the people? How’s work? Ugh, there’s so much to know! I really wished you’d call though. Mum’s been asking about you. Don’t worry, I told her you’re doing good, just busy. She misses you too, you know?

If we didn’t have a fall out, maybe you’d actually call sometime. Maybe you did call. Maybe the blank call I got at 2 in the morning was you. Or just some random drunk call. I guess I’ll never know. It’s fine, I understand. I hope you’re good. I hope the city’s treating you right. I’m writing today to let you know how things have changed ever since you left, but still somehow managed to stay the same. I do all the things that I did when you were around, its just not the same without you. I wish you the best and I just want you to know, I miss you.

Your’s,

Friend

Whatever happened to smiling

I remember the good old times, without mobile phones or ‘always available’ cameras to take instant pictures. Remember the era of retro cameras? With a limited number of shots in hand, it made sense to have the perfect shot. Although that never happened. Perfect shot? What?

Every picture was a failed attempt of posing good, with horrible lighting and that blurred image because nobody could stand still. But along with technology came phones with better pixel quality and hence began the selfie era.

Not complaining, huge fan! Taking hundreds of pictures in the same pose and then finding the best among all? Pff! Thats what I live for!

Anyways, with hundreds of photographs came hundreds of facial expressions. Duck face, pouting, sticking your tongue out. Its a shame one of the most loved expression was left behind, with the retro camera.

Smiling

They say one smile can change the world. But how is it that when it comes to capturing a moment with our handy 12MP front camera, we can think of all the things to do, than smile. Curling your lips is obviously easier than pouting! Or the thing that boys do with their eyebrows. Show that stupid grin of yours when you are about to get caught for doing something funny or weird to the camera, you’d surely cherish that more than anything.

Now when we see the old photographs, the one with blurred but smiling humans, those were much better. I am not sure how it started, but the instagram feed has everything good, bad to just plain weird but almost zero to a few smiling humans. It got me thinking, whatever happened to just smiling…..

– Prajakta Dengale

She loves Rom-Coms!

She loves romantic comedies! The beautiful feeling when butterflies fill her stomach, while her heart is so full of warmth that tears just flow down her cheeks is what makes her weekend worth waiting for. She watches 3 movies in a row, sometimes even 5. Those cheesy plots where the muscular male lead kisses the beautiful female lead in the rain is what she lives for. From Hollywood blockbusters like “When Harry met Sally” , “You’ve got mail” to Bollywood hits like “DDLJ “Jab we met” and “I hate love story” , she’s seen it all.

She’s so into finding her soulmate in a coffee shop that she’ll drink 4 cups of coffee in a small local cafe, looking up from her book every time the tiny doorbell rings, waiting for ‘The One’. Oh how many times she’s been disappointed! Sometimes there actually would be a potential Mr.Darcy standing on the entrance of the cheesy cafe, which smells like Coffee and cookies, and plays those 90’s songs on Thursday, but there will be a Mrs. Darcy entering right after him; making her sigh in disappointment, muttering “Seriously?” to herself. And the caffeine running in her system causes her to stay awake at night and watch more rom-coms.

When she’ll be walking towards class with a pile of books in her hand, her eyes would search for those strong arms, which will hold her when she ‘accidently’ trips just when he’s walking towards her. Papers covered with neon highlighter will be flying all over the place. And as there eyes meet after he has ‘oh so bravely’ saved her from a pretty nasty bruised rib, with “DDLJ” music playing in the background; she’ll blush and giggle and he’ll walk her to class and they’ll live happily ever after. Instead, the guy will watch her fall, help her pick her things up and probably leave saying “Girls” under his breath.

She even walks around the dangerous parts of the city which are unsafe for girls just to be rescued by her prince charming.

She may be an independent, strong woman but her heart melts every single time she reads ‘The notebook’ every summer. She even tried sending letters in this era where people prefer texting each other over calling. No wonder she never got a reply back.

It’s not that she’s never had a relationship, she’s been in many ever since her kindergarten friend asked her to be his girlfriend, and when she said no because he smelled funny, he pulled her ponytails and made her cry . But they all ended, somehow. Maybe due to her expectations of life being a replica of those Ryan Gosling featuring movies. Or maybe it’s because she wanted to have something very few people had. Maybe she had it too, but it never felt right.

Until she met you.

You, with your stupid grin and messy hair and the same black t-shirt and the old faded jeans, laughing on her love of romance. You, with your lanky arms and moving in a way which looked like you have no bone in your body. You, with your idea of a real date being dinner on a roadside Chinese stall instead of a candle light dinner in “La Pasta” where food is overrated and you don’t know which wine to order or what fork to use. She loved those loud laughs, sitting on the blue stools drinking soup off those small dirty red bowls; talking about anything and everything.

Even though there was no cliche incidence about how you met, she somehow started believing in what you guys had. The idea of love she had in her mind for a long time was far gone when you came along.

She was a girl who loves rom-coms for a long time, until you. Now she’s just a girl, madly and deeply in love.

– Prajakta Dengale

The girl songs are written about

You know I always wondered who Cecilia was and who was the girl ‘Stairway to heaven’ was written about?
I always vision her as someone who wears yellow sundresses with a butterfly necklace,and walks down the road with a cute little footwear; with just the right amount of confidence that would just make you want to put your head down in shame.
While me on the other hand will trip 3 times before I can even reach home, wearing a black t-shirt and ripped jeans that I brought from the backyard sale.
She’s so graceful when she talks, her tongue rolls just enough to make words sound like melodies and her first hello to you would make you want to listen to her forever.
While I’m still struggling to talk to people so I just put my head down, and my words don’t come out right, hell, my letters are all messed-up. My R’s are a little rough and my Da’s need a brushing up, and it takes me a lot courage and caffeine to come up to you and say “hi”.
She’s very kind too, she’ll help you decide the correct dress or what Color goes with what and what books to read , what songs to listen to and what places to be at.
While I am still trying to figure that out on my own, let alone guide people about it.
She has really soft skin. The one without any scars on it, almost clear but with a beauty spot behind her earlobe which you’ll only notice when she ties her hair in a bun every time she’s working on something.
While I still have those scars on my knees from when I fell in 5th grade. And my hair used to be all over the place so I decided to cut it and ended up looking like a kid for almost a year.
She has the etiquette that everyone is so fond of, Like she’ll sip her drink in a way that somehow makes it look attractive. Her laugh is like music to ears. So beautiful, that you’ll willingly throw yourself down a flight of stairs just to make her laugh.
While I’m still cautiously trying not to spill my drink or choke on it, and not snort every time I see a funny picture of a dog being stuck somewhere on the internet.
She makes you wanna fall in love with her, and just be perfect. Because she is perfect. Or maybe she is not.
While I’m sitting in a room full of people who won’t bother looking at me twice, writing about someone who may or may not be real, and exists in a person’s imagination, like mine.
She may be an inspiration to many millennials who are struggling to find ‘the one’ or even find themselves.
She may or may not be perfect, just like me.
But just when I listen to Simon Garfunkel play Cecilia, I just wish I can be the girl songs are written about.

– Prajakta Dengale

Until I find myself

“So where are you now?” he asked as he sipped his coffee.

“In front of you?” she answered, so confused it almost came out as a question.

“In life, I mean”, he replied.

She smiled before answering, ” I am figuring out.”

“Figuring out what exactly?” he asked further.

“You know… what I want to do, what I love to do, what I need to do. You see, I spent the last few years doing things because they were expected of me to do, or were the ‘right thing’. I didn’t think there was any other way. I guess when you’re young and accustomed to doing the same mundane things, change seems hard. Let alone figuring out stuff.

But as a wise drunk man once said ‘Life’s too short’. So I’m trying out new things, some I like, some I don’t. But at least I get to scratch it off my list. I like painting now, who knows ten years from now, the same smell of paint might make me want to puke. But I’m going to do it while it lasts.  Until I finally find it, until i finally find myself.”

-Prajakta Dengale